confessions of a super morbidly obese women.....

so ppl wonder why i am going suregery route...especilaly cuz the first time on ww i lost 96lbs. well i was unable to stick to ww due to the fact that i was ALWAYS hungry. no matter how much i ate i was still hungry. surgery is suppose to help with that. plus i need the help to not even touch bad food, moderation doesnt really work for me....i always go overboard. also you lose it quicker, i need to lose it quickly. because there is a lot of things in life i cant do anymore. so here are my confessions. please dont judge. -I weigh 500 lbs -my bmi is 74 (obese is 30 and higher) - since stopping weight watchers, about 4 years ago, i have gained about 220 lbs. -i can no longer drive, i dont fit in the seat -i break chairs -i cant fit if in one if it has arms -i cannot stand for more then 1 min without my legs bucklig and my back spasming. -i had to quit my job partly because i couldnt stand (partially for mental health reasons) - i get winded walking anywhere -i am in the largest size at penningtons...and some of them dont even fit -i couldnt find a bathing suit that would fit so i have only been able to watch my kids swim instead of joining them. - i despise leaving the house, i feel like everyone is judging me and staring at me all the time so i avoid social functions as much as possible. - i get severe leg and feet cramps - i have to sit down at the stove to cook anything as i cannot stand. -i hate my body and myself for letting it get this bad. so those are my reasons that i need to do something drastic and need to do it now! unless you have lived this big with these issues you might not get it, but judgement is not what i need...i need support to become healthy. thank you.